The End

I recently published my first edited book,  Labor of Love: A Literary Mama Staff Anthology ,  with  Small Harbor Publishing . It's an anthology of writing from  Literary Mama  staff over the past 20 years. It's a beautiful collection and I am proud of the writers and proud to share the book.  It seems a fitting moment, as I pondered sharing about the book here on the blog, to reflect on my life as a blogger, and acknowledge that it is time to officially end this blog.   I started blogging in about 2007, when my baby was learning to toddle, when I was learning how to be a mother and stepmother, when I was just starting to see my way as a writer. I needed it back then. I craved it. I had a variety of blog iterations--family, art, creativity, writing things I delved into. There's a freedom in blogging, a casualness, an easy familiarity that's lacking (for me anyway) in other kinds of writing. I loved blogging and the words came pouring out.  Over the years since then, some

Nature Writing Entry #3

1-25-15 at 4:30 pm
at the Stewart Park Promontory

  • Temperature: 20 degrees
  • Wind: 0-8 MPH   Gusts: 2-12 MPH
  • Feels like: Hypothermia weather
  • Partly sunny, high wispy clouds

Animals seen:
  • Flocks of Canada Geese flying in Vs
  • A few gulls flying
  • One or two unidentified songbirds flying overhead

Humans seen:
  • A dozen or so people coming and going. Driving by the lake taking photographs. A few walking around.


The sky is pastel this afternoon, slipping toward darkness as the sun steals away behind the west hill. The wind blasts me with cold, cutting through every bit of clothing I wear, as in previous visits. I hasten to the Promontory to see what I can see, with the goal of getting out of the cold as soon as possible. I keep to the loop, then step down onto the small west side beach where the wind doesn’t penetrate.

I’m hoping for a sunset show. As I wait to see what the sun will do, I look around the tiny beach. At first glance it’s all rocks and branches, nature’s debris. Then I see a large, white stick glaring at me and whispering I don’t belong here. A beaver-chewed stick. Utterly odd to find this. There are a few creeks that flow into the lake here at the southern end, but as far as I know, none of them are home to beaver. And to the north there are no swamps or side ponds that would house beaver. It’s a beautiful stick though. Perfect for building a submerged lodge.



I look more around the pebbly beach. There are other odd items to be found. Others that don’t belong.




At forty miles, Cayuga Lake is the longest of the Finger Lakes. Stewart Park sits at the southern tip. Though the water in the lake moves from south to north—through the Erie Canal to Lake Ontario, then on through the St. Lawrence River to the Atlantic Ocean—the winds push surface water, and anything on the surface, to the shore at Stewart Park.

Before the arrival of Europeans, the Native Americans had a village at the edge of Cayuga Lake called Neodakheat. By the 1700’s, Ithaca was under the dominion of white settlers. Since then, the land now called Stewart Park saw use as athletic facilities, an amusement park, a film studio, a zoo, and Ithaca’s first Vaudeville theatre. A lot of uses, a lot of humans.

So, in addition to whatever is tossed into the water from all of those forty miles north, and the extensive use of this end of the lake, there are bound to be cast-off relics.

Normally, I would feel compelled to collect all this garbage. Normally, I would feel disgusted and angry. Normally, that anger would switch to depression, as I thought of the lack of human respect for nature. But today is different. Today I have questions. Today, a discussion in my Nature Writing course has me thinking constantly about what nature is. And how exactly humans fit in to it.

A beaver leaving scraps of its housing is ‘natural.’ But a Smirnoff bottle is not. Why? When Native people lived here 400 years ago, did they not cast off their waste? Yet when we find shards of ancestral peoples’ pottery, don’t we clamber to preserve them, often in situ, often as evidence of the previous natural world? If I dug down under the grass and tennis courts in the middle of the park, would I find traces of the carousel, the movie making, the zoo animals that once paced in their cages on this land? Would they be natural items, there, deep in the dirt? Or would they still be foreigners?

There is no doubt that these human remnants are indeed trash. My gut tells me they don’t belong. But right now, I look closely at the various artifacts, figuring out how to take a photo that captures light and creates composition that might be pleasing to the eye. I imagine I can spin trash into art.

I see these remnants as bits and pieces of discarded life. Someone drank from that bottle of Smirnoff. Was he drowning his sorrows in a stolen moment at the far side of the park when he put bottle to lips? Was she leaning on the rail of the dinner boat when a shift in waves under the hull caused her to lose her grip on the bottle, dropping it overboard? Was he with his friends, a few stolen bottles from the parent’s liquor cabinet to try for the first time? I have to wonder if the stories behind the remnants make them belong. For we are behind the stories, and we all are trying desperately to belong.

If the human alteration of earthly materials renders an item unnatural, can a second human alteration—stories, photographs, art—revert it back? Or is it a natural alteration—burial underground, wind erosion, time—that which is needed for a remnant to become a part of nature again?


Back in my car with the heat running I jot down my thoughts about the Promontory today. The sun is gone behind the hill. Only black silhouettes of trees—and many questions—remain. When I look up at a willow outlined in light, I see a contrail. A stab of white cut into the darkening evening, slashed across the tree. An intersection of sorts.


Slowly, the plane traverses the sky leaving its sharp mark behind it. Equally slowly, the wind pushes at it, breaking the water droplets into a thousand pieces, dissipating it into blue.


For a brief history of Stewart Park, go to The Friends of Stewart Park website.

Comments

Sue Heavenrich said…
an interesting thought - especially regarding archeological evidence for future generations. Always a question: how much to clean up? how much to leave?
For we are behind the stories, and we all are trying desperately to belong.

What a beautiful sentiment. And I love the inspiration you took from the "unnatural" or the trash you found in the natural world. What gorgeous pictures too!
Your photographs are spectacular!

I love your speculation on the origins of the trash. I usually look at it and say, "What a bleeping pig." You've given me cause to wonder about the "pig" who dropped it, and to think about a time when perhaps a napkin or receipt blew out of my own car or pocket.

There is a difference between the beaver's leftovers and ours, but you've blurred the lines a bit. Beautiful post!
Andrea said…
Beautiful. I love how the same colors appear in each photo--blue, turquoise, yellow, purple, brown--whether manmade or "natural," sky, rock, leaf, or bottle, glass, plastic.
Amanda K. Jaros said…
Thank you all for your thoughts and kind words. I love taking pictures.
Anonymous said…
"If the human alteration of earthly materials renders an item unnatural, can a second human alteration—stories, photographs, art—revert it back? Or is it a natural alteration—burial underground, wind erosion, time—that which is needed for a remnant to become a part of nature again?"

Wow. Definitely something to think about. You raise such intriguing questions. Is the word "trash" as vague and complex as the word "nature"?

Your pictures are stunning! What a cool history this place has!
Unknown said…
Amanda, Really breathtaking photographs! What kind of camera?
Amanda K. Jaros said…
I hate to admit it, but this was my phone camera. My regular camera froze and wouldn't take anything. Thanks though!!
Unknown said…
I love how fully you're exploring contrasts here, both visually and through language. I'm interested in how completely it changes perspective to consider these incongruous elements as artifacts, rather than as trash or debris. The shift makes each small detail worth considering for its own story.
Erica Scaife said…
What a beautiful post - in both words and pictures. You bring up so many thought-provoking questions. And I loved how you added in the various ways this "trash" may have become trash...both accidentally and on purpose.